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From: Lisa Cote [mailto:ljcote@snet.net] Hello
everyone, It
seems like forever since I’ve written an “update”…almost three weeks to
be exact. So I thought I’d send around a little update to all of you
folks who remained so vigilant during these past few months. For
the past few weeks my days have consisted mostly of sending out Thank you cards
(almost 200 and the beautiful cards are still pouring in – thank you thank
you…). It was a very healing task but so small compared to everything
everyone has done for us during this difficult time. The other parts of my
days have been way too quiet. I went from visiting the hospital and
answering 10-15 emails regarding Ben’s updates every day…to doing barely
anything within only a few days. My brain knew it was a
logical progression…but my heart really struggled with it. A few
days were spent shopping (wrong move if you’re trying NOT to be depressed
after giving birth to twins!), doing odd jobs on my computer, and cuddling
with my “kitty”. Animals can be a really good companion if you don’t
feel like talking but could use some “fuzzy” warmth! Oh, my, after
re-reading that I think I really need to go back to work!! I’ve
been soul searching for a while about going back to work and getting back into
my “normal” routine. I struggled between going back only part time or
jumping back into full time. I, today, realized that keeping myself as
busy as possible and relieving some of our financial burden is the direction I
need to go in right now. My boss was very patient with me as I went back
and forth on whether or not I would be returning full time…and I’m so
grateful to him. I’m looking forward to seeing my colleagues again and
slowly getting back into the “land of the living” and on the road to
heal a bit. I do plan on taking steps to build my “side” business of
Graphic/Custom Design on some level as well. So those of you who have
voiced an interest in my services…I’m available on weekends to help you
out!! Many
people have asked if I will be performing again in the near future…My answer
is yes, hopefully soon…but as most of you know, the coffeehouse that I played
at frequently here in Southington (Pappy’s) recently closed its doors.
So it will take me some time and effort to find other local places to play –
but I DO plan on singing out again – it’s where my heart gets its
“juice” and I could NEVER give that up. I am singing with the TGIS
band at our church each week and that is keeping me going for now. I’ll
keep you posted as to where and when I’m playing as soon as I can. Jeffrey
and the kids are doing well…just as my job will keep me busy and on that
“healing” path, Jeffrey’s job has kept him busy as well – and the folks
he works for and with have been truly an amazing support throughout Jeffrey’s
excitng and painful journey in becoming a first time dad and then a grieving
father. If I could hug each person at Anchor Environmental at this
moment I would…they all deserve it. Adam
and Tori have kept us focused on how lucky we really are these days. They
are healthy, doing “normal” kid things; they remind us to keep our
senses of humor and they are both doing well in school – despite all of the
chaos our home has endured for these months (mostly due to Rich and Steve
keeping things as “normal” as possible during it all for them – thanks so
much to both of you). We pray for the boys every night and they are so
sweet when discussions include Ben and Josh. I think throughout all of
this, their main concern was me. They watched me this past summer as I
struggled with my difficult pregnancy and poor health and to have me back to
“normal” is all they really wanted. They know how sad I am and how
difficult it was for me to lose Ben and Josh but they also know how hard it was
for me to see Ben in pain and discomfort and that I am comforted by the fact
that the boys are in a “painless” place now. It’s sparked many a
discussion about Heaven and God and Love and I find myself falling deeper in
love with Adam and Tori each day. So
in closing, I’ll say one more “THANKS!” and ask that you continue to keep
our family in your prayers. As the holiday season approaches I feel that
we will most likely face some difficult times. However, Jeffrey and I have
the physical and emotional embrace of support and love from all of you and it
strengthens us. I will try to be in touch as much as possible after my
return to work…but know that you are all in my thoughts and prayers
continuously. And that I love you all dearly… P.S.
The footprints on the thank you cards ARE indeed Ben’s and Josh’s…just
reduced in size to fit the card… Love
and Peace, click here to return to OUR STORY page
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